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    A XaiakuX Mess of Words.

    I've decide to start a thread where I will base all of my written pieces. All of which will probably be short. Mostly poetry. I've been working a lot on it. I'm trying to work on stuff that will tell a story. There are several great poets that tell marvelous stories. I would enjoy eventually becoming one of them. The fun part is that there's no real way I HAVE to write. As long as I feel it's interesting, unique, and tells some sort of story.

    So here it is:

    A XaiakuX Mess of Words!
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    "Light and Dark"
    A struggle to find the good left in this dark world.

    "The Break-Up"
    A tale of sorrow and redemption.

    "Heartbroken"
    You broke my heart, and I hate you for that.

    "The Bloodlust"
    There's a madness in all of us.

    "The Lady Hel"
    Forever your faithful servant.

    "God of Mischief"
    Your fate is carved in stone.

    "Anarchy"
    To the bitter end.

    "My Little Red Star"
    MARVEL'S BLACK WIDOW

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    All of the poems and stories posted in this thread are written by me. If I see any of my writings posted anywhere other than here without my say so, the consequences will be dire, and financially troublesome for you. Be warned that I take the use of my artwork very seriously, and you will have a bad day if I catch you.

    Otherwise, enjoy. I love your eyes.. looking at my words.. <3
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    "Light and Dark"
    A struggle to find the good left in this dark world.
    -- By XaiakuX

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    Quietly, Violently
    I slip into the night.

    Silently, Savagely
    I fight to find the light
    .

    In a world lost to hate.
    like a fish takes the bait.

    Quietly, Silently
    I slip into the night.

    Somewhere hidden, lost to find.
    Ease the burden, or lose your mind.

    Violently, Savagely
    I fight to find the light
    .

    If I should fall before the morning sun
    Lay me down, for my task is done.

    I will rest in peace, and find my way
    There is nothing left to say.

    Quietly, I slip into the night.

    All the anger, I cannot find.
    All the love, I left behind.

    I will battle on until I die.
    Let them hear my violent cry.

    Violently, I fight to find the light.

    Be my totem of peace in this darkness
    All the bliss I seek to harness.

    Calm and cool like the ocean breeze
    The peace I need will set me free.

    Silently, I slip into the night.

    Violence thrashes, takes its hold.
    I've never felt a rage so bold

    It's coming down, it's drawing near
    embracing me with love and fear.

    Savagely, I seek to find the light.


    Do not go quietly. Do not be violent.

    Do not fade into the night.

    Do not be savage. Do not go silent.

    There is no need to fight.

    You have no need to thrive in darkness
    No anger needed to be harnessed.

    Calm yourself, and hear my plight.

    ... You have already...

    Found the light...
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    I love the whole visual poetry thing you've got going on here. I've found it always makes a piece much more powerful!
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    "The Break-Up"
    A tale of sorrow and redemption.
    -- By XaiakuX

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    Silently I wait and bleed
    It's not enough, I cannot stay
    I'm suffering in agony
    This love you give, I threw away
    Waiting to see If you will be
    I need to leave, you need to stop
    The one who will come back to me
    Don't say a word just give it up

    There's nothing left.

    You took my heart into your hands
    Don't fight this one, you'll make it worse
    You tore it up, it fell like sands
    What you give, I don't deserve
    I fell in love, you walked away
    Why can't you see I'm not the one
    I only wanted you to stay
    Just let me go because I'm done

    There's nothing left.

    I held you close, you pushed me back
    You chose a path I didn't need
    So I gave in to your attacks
    You want me back, but you can't see
    All I wanted was to be loved
    I'm the one who wants to leave
    I wanted you, that was enough
    I'm the one who's set you free

    Now you're gone.

    I gave my all and watched it burn
    My mind's made up, my heart is sold
    Saw your smile, watched it turn
    I made my choice, and hit the road
    Now there's nothing left inside
    There's no regrets, my day's new dawn
    There's nothing left, I say goodbye
    I've made my peace, and now I'm gone

    But wait, what's this?

    Something different, something new
    Something's missing, something's wrong
    Something there that isn't you
    I feel so empty with you gone
    Something light and something grand
    This isn't right, this can't be real
    Something there to take my hand
    I can't describe this pain I feel

    Now there's this.

    This feeling here, it isn't bad
    This emptiness it feels so cold
    Erases all the pain I had
    It doesn't stop it only grows
    Nothing left of you with me
    What have I done, this cannot be
    No more feeling misery
    I need you back here, next to me

    I'm happy, now.

    Happy now that you're not here
    I'm so sorry, please come back
    No more me living in fear
    I cannot breathe, your love I lack
    Of if you'll leave or if you'll stay
    I'll go insane if you're not here
    It no longer matters, anyway
    Hold me close, and hold me dear

    The past is gone.

    Memories are all that's left
    I've seen my error, I was wrong
    I let them go, one final breath
    I'm so lost, it's been too long
    Before I do, and set you free
    What am I supposed to do
    There's one more thing you need to see
    I feel I'm nothing without you

    There's nothing left.
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    "Heartbroken"
    You broke my heart, and I hate you for that.
    -- By XaiakuX

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    -Original Post Here-
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    You broke my heart, and I hate you for that
    You tore it from my chest
    You stomped on it
    It's like you never even cared

    I have never been defeated
    Love had never beaten me
    Until I loved you
    Until you defeated me

    You broke my heart, and I hate you for that
    You think women are the only ones that feel it?
    Nah, heartbreak is for everybody
    Love is just a game, and you played it dirty

    All the years that I listened to your bullsh*t
    Every minute that I thought that you were worth it
    Every day that I wasted away thinking about us
    I look back on all of it in disgust

    You broke my heart, and I hate you for that
    Ripped it out and used it
    Like play-doh or silly putty
    But this isn't child's play

    This is what we call the real life
    Karma is real, and she's a b*tch
    I once thought to make you my wife
    But the thought now makes me sick

    You broke my heart, and I hate you for that
    For a year you were my only thought
    Where did I go wrong? What do I do without you?
    Turns out that I'm an idiot

    I don't need you, anymore, I'm free
    Free to fly so high into the sky that
    If I ever cry again no one will see it
    Because the pain will never be that bad

    You broke my heart, and I hate you for that
    You said you loved me and it feels like
    You were lying all that time I wasted on you
    Why would anyone do that to someone they loved?

    I'm not sorry for this poem
    I'm sorry that I ever truly loved you
    I'm sorry that I ever opened up
    That I ever let you see my demons

    You broke my heart, and I hate you for that
    When will the hurting stop?
    When will it be enough?
    What do I do? What do I need to say?

    It hurt so much, before, but I'm okay
    You never told anyone my secrets
    You never revealed the monster
    Thank you for that, I mean it

    You broke my heart, but I forgive you for that
    I forgive you for the pain you caused me
    I was so far away but I couldn't see
    That it was hurting you just the same

    I was ignorant and selfish, but my eyes are open
    I see the errors and the problems
    There is no way to make it right
    You're gone now, but not forgotten

    You broke my heart, but that's ancient history
    I look at you, now, and I don't feel the hate
    I felt it before, it isn't there anymore
    I don't care what people think or say

    I hope there will come a day where we can
    Be friends again, and put the past behind us
    Stop the grudges and stop the hatred
    Be like Frozen and "Let It Go"

    You broke my heart, but I don't care anymore
    Bygones are bygones, what are we fighting for?
    You want a poem to rhyme, well here I go
    This is about to be a Caleb's love life show

    It started out like any other silly crush
    I think I like you as more than a friend
    Your smile, your touch, an intoxicating rush
    I swore to God I would love you until the very end

    Then came the fighting, then the distance
    That's when everything fell apart
    When my love and affection met resistance
    That's when you broke my heart

    So I got mad, I got sad, and I fought you at every turn
    I was so lost and entranced in a state of desperation
    I did everything I could to fix the bridge that burned
    That's when I learned the truth of love and expiration

    In my heart, a shadow grew, every part of me hated you
    It got stronger every day, I threw it all away
    The pain within would not subside
    when I lost you, I died inside

    What kind of man lets it hit him this hard?
    Where did I go wrong to make it fall apart?
    I couldn't take it, so I did what I had to do
    I let go of everything that kept me tied to you

    These days, you're still there, I see you every day
    But the hate inside has gone. The pain just went away
    I'm safe to say that I'm okay, I hope that you're the same
    I'm better, now, and I've learned that people always change

    You broke my heart, and I hated you for that
    You broke my heart, and I've forgiven you for that
    You broke my heart, but I know forever never lasts
    You broke my heart, but the past is in the past

    Thank you for teaching me these lessons in my life
    I will never forget you
    Good-bye.
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    Light and Dark... Such juxtaposition. I love that there's a visual element of a villanelle. If that was intentional, that's pretty genius. Almost reminds me of "Do not go gentle into that good night".
    Somewhere hidden, lost to find.
    Ease the burden, or lose your mind.
    I always admire how you manage to weave rhymes within rhymes effortlessly. Such a treat for a reader to have a double dose of rhyme~
    Be my totem of peace in this darkness
    Perhaps my favourite line of the poem. I love the diction of 'totem', suggesting something sacred and something primal and elemental, and it just extends past being a mere symbol, almost like a living entity.

    Dual perspectives being examined simultaneous is something I've seen you done before and The Break-Up does not disappoint. Its rhyme scheme is akin to the sonnet but the little interjections make it seem more like a ballad that's performed, instead of being read, like a song. Such progression through the poem as well, running antiparallel, like...a helix of DNA (weird analogy but I hope you get my drift). And it can possibly be a cycle or a role-swap, or both tbqh. What a way to evoke the complexities of human relationships especially one of love.

    I always like seeing what you write; what you write about is so simple and profound and utterly poignant. In the words of Oliver Twist, more please!

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    Quote Originally Posted by solivagant View Post
    Light and Dark... Such juxtaposition. I love that there's a visual element of a villanelle. If that was intentional, that's pretty genius. Almost reminds me of "Do not go gentle into that good night". I always admire how you manage to weave rhymes within rhymes effortlessly. Such a treat for a reader to have a double dose of rhyme~ Perhaps my favourite line of the poem. I love the diction of 'totem', suggesting something sacred and something primal and elemental, and it just extends past being a mere symbol, almost like a living entity.

    Dual perspectives being examined simultaneous is something I've seen you done before and The Break-Up does not disappoint. Its rhyme scheme is akin to the sonnet but the little interjections make it seem more like a ballad that's performed, instead of being read, like a song. Such progression through the poem as well, running antiparallel, like...a helix of DNA (weird analogy but I hope you get my drift). And it can possibly be a cycle or a role-swap, or both tbqh. What a way to evoke the complexities of human relationships especially one of love.

    I always like seeing what you write; what you write about is so simple and profound and utterly poignant. In the words of Oliver Twist, more please!
    Lots of big words in there. Thankfully I know big words. I appreciate it. I appreciate how you dissected and found things that I didn't even think about while writing it. You entered your own world and exposed hidden truths in my writing. That is art. Always in the eye of the beholder. Always a matter of perspective. From me writing these poems, to you diligently describing how you feel about them. Your comment, your description, your perspective is a work of art in of itself. Kudos to you, and thank you.

    My next post will be very dark. It will not be for the faint hearted, and it is.. in fact, the other post, revised, from the first WAR back in 2014.

    The Bloodlust.
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    "The Bloodlust"
    There's a madness in all of us.
    -- By XaiakuX

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    THIS IS A REVISED POEM!
    -Original Post Here-
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    In the recesses of the world..
    The shadows, the darkness..

    The vile minds of humanity lurk in the night, awaiting their next victim.

    Some do it for fun, some do it because they feel it is their calling.
    Some feel they are serving a higher purpose, and some do it out of boredom.

    You, the innocent, suffer their tyranny. While there is some good in the world, there is most certainly evil.

    An evil that will never be extinguished...

    From the shadows it stalks you
    A creature of the night
    ~
    You feel it creeping closer
    But it's hidden from your sight
    ~
    Those people tried to warn you
    To walk close to where there's light
    ~
    But now you're just a victim
    Of a heinous beast called fright

    The bloodlust can never truly be satisfied..
    The bloodlust will never truly die..

    The thoughts of a killer will forever wander to the feeling of fresh blood trickling down their skin.

    They'll long for it, and they'll sate the need by any means necessary.
    They are uncaring, unforgiving, and psychotic.

    They feed on the fear and paranoia of their victims.

    As they hunt, they are almost aroused by the fantasy of killing once again.

    Take it now, to a higher level
    This cushioned life in which you revel
    ~
    A upturned nose invites a hell
    Take you back to where I dwell
    ~
    A wicked heart you can't ignore
    I'll tie you up and slam the door
    ~
    You cannot escape this anymore
    You've no idea what I've got in store

    When the killer stalks his victim, both people can feel the intensity.

    The thrill of the chase.

    One lead by fear, and one lead by desire.
    There is a rare chance that the victim manages to escape their pursuer.
    However, there can be no escape from death.

    Sooner or later, the killer will feel the satisfaction of sliding a blade into someone's heart, or putting a bullet into someone's head.

    I will not stop, I won't give in
    Body counts rise, I'm drowning in sin
    ~
    I'm not winning, but I'm not quitting
    Nor am I willing to stop my killing
    ~
    The thrill of the chase, quicken pace
    I'll peel the skin right off your face
    ~
    Fight my demons or fight my knife
    Killed your family, now I end your life

    Time and time again, the killer is brought to justice by keepers of the peace.

    The good guys
    The heroes
    The denizens of the light

    However, the shadow of death will never go away.
    So long as good exists in this world, evil, too, will thrive.

    Murder will keep happening.
    Hate will still plague our minds.
    Darkness will still corrupt our souls.

    So long as there is good, there will inevitably be evil.

    Call me crazy, you don't know me
    I'm a psycho, sad and lonely
    ~
    I thirst for blood, it's what I love
    They call me sick, I'm always judged
    ~
    Maybe I'll show the world my colors
    Maybe I'll kill these mother f**kers
    ~
    I might be crazy, might be insane
    But you're the victim of my game

    The bloodlust presents itself as an instability.

    A sickness.
    An illness.
    A madness.

    Psychotic breakdowns which lead to irrevocably violent tendencies. To which the victim of the bloodlust is not the only victim.

    The monster is also a victim
    A victim of a sickness
    A victim of the bloodlust

    But to succumb to that illness, is to be weak. A weak and cowardly person loses himself in the bloodlust. He also loses his mind...

    Look at you quiver, look at you shake
    Hear you scream with every bone I break
    ~
    Murder by nature, killer by thought
    Witness the monster that you wrought
    ~
    It's my design, terror to all!
    You can't stop me, I won't fall!
    ~
    For all the pain that you'll endure
    Spread their blood across the floor

    Insanity.

    Insanity means to do things repetitively and expecting a different result each time.
    Murder has the same result every time.

    Insanity also follows a pattern. Patterns are sought by seekers of justice.
    A downfall.

    Madness begets chaos.
    Chaos begets murder.
    Murder begets insanity.
    Insanity begets justice.

    With crime so widely predictable, it's a wonder how people get away with it.
    It's the unpredictable ones that get away.

    All you can do is hope and pray. Pray that it will go away. Hope that it won't find you, someday.

    Someday.
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    "The Lady Hel"
    Forever your faithful servant.
    -- By XaiakuX

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    She sits upon her throne
    Dwelling in the shadows
    Waiting

    Tall, pale, and cold as a winter's night
    As if death had taken her

    She is above death and beyond it
    She is neither dead nor living

    O' child of Loki
    Mistress of the dead

    Captor of souls
    Goddess of damnation

    I do not fear you or your wrath
    Only the idea of death itself

    Bear upon me thy great fury
    For I am drawn to your grace

    A divine and unholy form you take
    A longing for you, temptation rises

    I am stricken

    Cursed to long for what will never be

    Bring the fury of Asgard
    Bring the fury of Jötunheimr

    The Lady Hel
    Child of Loki
    Keeper of the damned

    I love you
    For I am your willing servant

    I hate you
    For you will never be mine
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    "God of Mischief"
    Your fate is carved in stone.
    -- By XaiakuX

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    Laced with poison your words escape your lips
    Ever intoxicating and dangerous to hear
    They grab at me ears with a touch that chills my every bone
    Words of PROMISE
    Words of DESIRE
    Words of CONTROL
    Words of FEAR

    They suffocate me until I trust them completely

    Your smile lingers in my mind, mischievous and cruel
    Unrelenting and sinister, as my will becomes your toy
    As if I were a marionette, and you a skillful puppeteer
    Like butter I would melt entirely to your whim
    My God
    My King
    My Lord
    My Master

    For I am a man, and men to gods are like ants to boots

    For a man's will, mine stands stronger than most
    I fight to no avail against the might of your control
    I am an unwilling nor wanting servant to a child of Jötunheimr
    I am forced to carry your burdens, unable to change my fate
    O' Loki
    Laufey's Son
    Silver-Tongued Deity
    Trickster of the Gods

    Your words have manifested and stricken me like a disease

    Child of the violent Fárbauti, you may seize Midgard
    Humans are feeble towards your prowess of control
    You may crush humanity beneath your mighty boot
    Loki the terrible, Loki the great, Loki the prankster
    Father to Jörmungandr, the Midgard Serpent
    Father to Hel, Keeper of the Damned
    Father to Fenrir, Slayer of Odin
    Mother to Sleipnir, The Eight-Legged Stallion
    Your destined demise is yet carved into the stone

    My words are like poison as they escape my lips
    Yet the words that expel are not mine to speak
    My tongue is twisted and controlled by he who wills me
    The one I praise and fear
    The one you must praise and fear
    The one all will praise and fear
    Loki's will be done

    Our God and true ruler will remain eternal over Midgard
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