"Today was a terrible day because..."

[Suicune's Fire]

my parents have completely stopped talking to me b/c i'm quitting my job after one training day b/c of the mental strain and hell it puts through b/c i'm not suited for retail and especially not a supervisor position in a retail store that has a super super super high theft rate. heck the day i trained someone stole something right in front of us and we can't do anything about it other than just watch them walk away for safety reason. i just wish my parents would understand that i feel bad enough about everything already with my loans and medical bills and i honestly wish i could just run away from home and not tell anyone. somehow they always flip it back on me and pin it like i blamed them for everything like yesterday my mom was like 'no one told you to apply' and all i said to her was 'you sent me the application link' to which she immediately took personally and thought i meant that i was blaming her for me applying to the job which isnt true at all?? and now she's like i'm not talking to you b/c you'll just blame me for whatever happens uwu.

i'm such a cry baby and i've been crying all day b/c im such an anxious person and i feel bad enough already that i have to call tomorrow and pretty much tell them that i'm too stupid and mentally ill to work at a retail position. i've been applying to jobs all day but no ones gonna hire me b/c my degree is virtually useless and i can't handle any more school either or i will mentally implode. i just really wish i wouldve gone to school for art but ig i like to ruin everything for myself.

That's tough, roo. =/ Your parents seem like high schoolers, honestly, not talking to you like that. It's so immature. They should be supportive of your decision. And yeah, I'm unemployed at the moment and there's no way I'd go for a manager position for the same reason! I had to check bags at my old work and it was extremely uncomfortable and would get yelled at frequently. That kind of stuff is really stressful and it honestly sounds like your mum has absolutely no idea what it's like to work retail.

Stand your ground and stay strong. You're entitled to feel safe in your work (and home) environment and anyone who thinks otherwise has a completely invalid view. Like HorusMyDude said, you're not alone. All you can do is try your best and you'll eventually come across something. I believe in you! Take care of yourself first. <3