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    [WAR] What We Hope (PG)

    This is my WAR entry for Week 1 of the writing contest! Anyone who isn't Lightning Dash can feel free to comment/review. I love those. c: Anyway, good luck to all the other WAR writers competing in this competition! I know I had fun with this one.

    Theme: Afterlife.



    What We Hope

    The afterlife.

    Some say it’s the thing they fear most. Others believe that it’s a paradise waiting just beyond the horizon. Some believe it doesn’t even exist, and some are unsure. Hell, some even pair the word with the club of the same name on that seedy street on the outskirts of the city. Needless to say, it only has meaning if you put meaning to it. I suppose that’s like anything, but it’s also something that’s difficult to give meaning to. Surrounding all the possibilities is the idea that I need to make up my mind on what’s out there and what holds the true power to decide our fate. Then again...why should I have to decide?

    I’m perfectly content not knowing what will happen to me when I kick the bucket. Why should I care, anyway? After I’m dead, I’m dead. There’s nothing more to it. I can never reuse my body again, although maybe that’s a good thing... After all I’ve done, people won’t even smile at me anymore. It’s not as if I’m some notorious criminal that everyone’s seen on the face of TV or stuck up on wanted posters; no, it’s more subtle than that. It’s like people can tell how much of an outcast I am with just a look. A single glance can tell you a lot, and I get glances all the time. Eyes full of warning, body tight and compact as if to hold in all their possessions. I’m not one of those charming homeless girls who can feign wealth and happiness. No, instead, I’m someone’s messenger pidove.

    Well, I was.

    I fumbled at my belt in an attempt to draw out my partner, but for the fiftieth time that day, the cold, hard truth spoke to me in multitudes of fear. I’ve been told that I sound apathetic towards everything, but when it comes to Styzer, the meaning of my, well, everything is morphed into an ugly ball of vulnerability. I hate it, and I hate being exposed, but I don’t hate her. I could never hate her. I love her. I love her with all my heart and I’d do anything for her. I would protect her with my life, just as she would for me...but unfortunately I never get my way. I’m cursed like that, and before anyone thinks I’m taking pity on myself, I’m not... It’s just impossible get used to never-ending misfortune. And when it slithers its way along the filthy floor in your conscience, raising its septic, elongated claws so practiced in the art of infection and promised slaughter, all you can do is watch from afar as those deathly spikes plunge into anything and everything you care about. There was only one thing I cared about, and that was Styzer. I...is. Is Styzer. Is.

    My mind is inverting. My heart is hammering against my ribcage and my brain won’t stop thinking. There’s a loose cog, or some sort of horrible scratching that’s grating against my hope—what little of it I’m ever able to conjure for any event undesirable to me. The waiting is killing me. My ability to do anything has been slashed into a thousand bleeding fragments of failure, the nerves still writhing in an attempt to revive the piece as a whole and stitch it back together. ‘No,’ I’m always telling myself, ‘you have to keep believing.’ But the attempts are frequently futile. No matter how hard I try to tell myself to have hope, there’s never any left. Hope is always working on borrowed time.

    I kicked the metal frame of the bed, yelping in response as one of the extruding wires entered the top of my foot without permission and punctured my dignity, causing me to whip around and seat myself on the criminally thin mattress and inspect my foot. As I removed my shoe, the guard patrolling the corridor shot a glare to me, and although I knew he was watching me, I simply ignored him. No man would make me turn from what I knew was important to me. It happened once before and it won’t happen again.

    “Dammit, it’s bleeding,” I whispered to myself, looking around my cell to see if there was anything I could use to soak up the blood. However, nothing appeared to me, so I simply drew both feet up onto the bed and sat cross-legged, using the bottom of the opposite pant leg to dab the wound.

    “Stop crying, you filthy cutthroat,” the same guard grunted as his whale-like body hauled itself down the corridor. I snorted at him in a half-hiss, only to hear some following muttering which was probably directed at either my sanity or my intelligence. When you’re confined in prison, you’ll learn to take insults like they’re a light mist that brushes your body with minimal pressure. In saying that, I learned about tough hides long before I ever went to prison.

    As surely as I can erase the impact of debasement...I can only hope that Styzer can shake off a simple wound. Oh, surprise surprise, the return of hope in all its glory. Unfortunately, hope has no glory.

    ***

    Going to sleep that night was hell, to say the least. Is this what afterlife is like? Hell? A flaming eternity of pain and suffering, torture and mauling? I’ll never be sure. It seems fitting after a life on earth which does the same to you. Or to me. To me and to anyone who comes in contact with me. Anyone I care anything for.

    Is it my fault? Does the infection begin with me? I don’t know. I can only imagine so, considering it’s not likely that it’s any other shared factor with those I learn to care for. If someone told me that as a baby, I had pulled a tail of a ninetales – or multiple tails, at that – I would have no trouble believing them. Even as a baby I was doomed to fail. I killed my mother upon birth, anyhow. Even though I had no inkling of vision or a memory at that age, I can picture it almost as if it was my own memory. Perhaps that’s because my father made sure to tell me in excruciating detail how I had taken his wife from him in exchange for me. How he would have preferred his wife, whom he loved and had shared countless good times with, over a “wriggling little hatchling” who had no idea what she’d just done.

    I can’t say I blame him. If that were me in his shoes, of course I would prefer the person I had spent time with and vowed to love and protect for the rest of my life. Why should a newborn baby be any more important than a grown woman? While I know that, he still kept me. I would have expected him to grow to love me as I got older and formed into a person who could actually do things. A person who could acknowledge all that he did for me and the generosity that he shared each and every moment that we were together. Did he, though? No. No, of course not.

    He claimed that he had an inability to love ever since Maria gave her life for mine. I feel sorry for Maria; I really do. My father didn’t deserve her. He was the lousiest scumbag I ever knew growing up. He quit his job and lived off government payment for having a kid. The house never saw a day of cleanliness and beer bottles were seldom out of sight. I learned to grow up without love, and therefore I went in search of it at the tender age of twelve, when I ran away and never turned back. It wasn’t long after that when I met Styzer, who was in much the same place as I was. I don’t know if her mother died in childbirth as well, but I do know that she was also outcast. Her family had abandoned her as well.

    I found her in an alleyway, trying to rummage through a skip. She was so tiny at the time that she had gotten herself in but was incapable of getting herself back out. She had coated the entire inside with a layer of ice, but she ran out of fuel and energy long before she could build herself any sort of staircase or ramp. When I had heard her cries and came to rescue her, she had been reduced to a shivering little lump of dark fur. She was so young that she hadn’t been exposed to cold climates enough to be able to withstand or even enjoy them. She must have been in there for hours before I found her, as her voice had been reduced to a few raspy croaks.

    She had almost met the afterlife that day, but it was the one time in my life that I stamped my foot down and stared Death in the face. He waved his scythe in my eyes, vowing to come back one day soon, but I promised myself that he could never come for my sneasel as long as she was in my protection. I suppose... I suppose he finally came to collect his debt. But he hasn’t won yet.

    It’s funny that I was a killer at birth—a reaper for the afterlife, considering that’s all I’ve done since. Not until I was thirteen, of course, but ever since then. At first it was a shock and I felt eternally dirtied, but after the tenth victim, I began to get used to it. The concept of an afterlife had faded into nothing but an idea. It no longer mattered to me, which is why I suppose I don’t give it much thought today.

    Death grew more and more meaningless in the face of practice and coin, until one day I was contracted to eliminate my father. It was no coincidence—I was forced into it as a final test for my acceptance into the organisation who had been employing me for five years. They picked me up shortly after I found Styzer, but trained me before I actually made a kill eight months later, the time in which I had a birthday.

    Fact is, murdering my father was difficult. So difficult, in fact, that I couldn’t finish the job. After I had cornered him, pinned him down and made him beg for his mercy, the garment around my face slipped off and he recognised me. The hollowness in his eyes which was ever-present when I was growing up had been filled with fear prior to his recognition skills when I overpowered him with ease, but upon learning who I was...it was like his heart broke. I was so taken aback by the apparent regard for my wellbeing he had that I could only sit and stare, unsure of myself and who I was for the first time in years. It was confronting to say the least, and I...couldn’t do it. Instead I fled, and that stirred up trouble with the organisation, especially once the police got involved.

    It was the kill I made four days ago that landed me in this cell. The b*stard had it coming, though. He was an assassin for that organisation I used to work for, and yes, the hit is now on me. Well, it’s highly unlikely they can reach me in jail, but they can certainly try. It’s not like it hasn’t happened before.

    It’s not me I’m worried about, though. It’s not the afterlife that’s going to welcome me after I die that I’m concerned with. If I die, I’ll deserve whatever’s coming to me, but...I can’t say the same for Styzer. She’s just a victim of a vicious life forced upon her. You could say that it’s the same for me, but something about being a pokémon makes her much more innocent than any human.

    I was the one who killed that man, and he was the one who...shot her. If it was possible, I would give my life for hers in a mutual exchange. I doubt she would ever let me do that, given how much she cares about me... I can’t say I understand why anyone should care about me. I’m a lowly thug, not a precious pokémon who has the entirety of the world yet to explore. She shouldn’t be with me, but...she’s all I have. I’m all she has. I feel selfishly connected to her in that way. But if she wanted to leave...I would let her. I have to pray that she doesn’t, though, because right now she needs the strongest grip on her life as she can.

    I’ve never prayed before but given the situation, I feel like I should... I need to help her some way and I can’t DO anything from inside this cell. They took away any chance I had of saving her and it’s driving me insane!

    Frantically I slid off my bed, abandoning the attempt to sleep, and scrambled onto my knees. I made a tepee with my arms, grasping hands at the top, and hung my head underneath it. ‘I don’t...I don’t know what to do. How do people pray?’ I thought hopelessly, clenching my teeth before thinking something up. “I need you to spare my sneasel, whoever you are. She has to live. You can’t TAKE her from me because it’s not fair and she deserves so much better than that. I don’t care how long I have to suffer in the dark, just...heal her in the end so that when those people show up to my cell door and tell me that she’s doing okay, I can feel a lifetime of relief. Let her go somewhere away from me if that’s what it’ll take, just don’t...don’t let the afterlife take her.”

    I remained in that position for another few seconds before collapsing the design of my prayer and ripping around as I got to my feet and began to pace between my bed and one of the walls. These walls that hold me prisoner while my partner is out there, trying to recover from the wound she suffered. It’s not like I haven’t been locked up before, but every time I have, I knew that I would get out and be able to meet up with her again...and that she would be safe...

    A ripple of panic made my eyes widen. No. No.

    What if they took her away to put her down? What if they thought she was too dangerous as a criminal’s pokémon and wanted to take her life for that? ‘No...no... Why didn’t I think of this before?! NO!’ I screeched internally, and suddenly the bars making up the front wall of my cell were a giant magnet, and I was the heavy chunk of nearing metal at its mercy. I didn’t care that several parts of my body began to beat with a dull pain as I shoved my hands through, slamming my feet into the bars and screamed, “Don’t kill her! She’s mine! You can’t DO this! Give her back to me now!”

    I knew any form of persuasion wouldn’t be powerful enough to get the guards to respond to me even mildly respectfully, or even gain their attention, which was why it was a surprise when one of them appeared in my peripherals. I felt a moment of hope as I watched his form close in on me in the artificially lit corridor, earnestly awaiting his arrival until I felt a sharp pain through my knuckles and globs of saliva on my face as he spat his threats. I wheeled back, noting the furious scowl upon his face and a baton gripped in his hand, but that wasn’t going to deter me.

    “Tell me what you’re doing to my sneasel!” I demanded, and the guard only scoffed. He consulted a clipboard that he had been carrying, which evidently had my name scribbled somewhere followed by the crime I had committed. This was an easy way for the guards identify us and see what we had done so they could make oh-so-witty remarks about our lifestyles and alleged crimes. However, this one also told him of Styzer’s state.

    “You’re that murdering scumbag, ‘ey? With that dirty little sneasel that looks like a sick rattata?” he bumbled, but all connotations attached to those words washed straight over me and rolled off my back. My eyes widened in near-excitement as I realised that he knew who I was and would likely give me answers. He licked his finger and thumb, then used it to turn the page halfway as he read whatever was on the back of the paper. He dropped the page corner uncaringly and blurted through his white moustache, “Or looked, anyway. It died three days ago from that bullet wound.”

    My blood ran cold.

    I stared at him with empty eyes. My breath forgot how to pass through my lungs. My arms went limp. The words echoed about the hollow skull upon my shoulders as images and words merged together, forming a nightmarish reality which slid its deadly, ice-cold claws into my soul. My jaw dropped open and I felt the fizz of tears eat at my eyeballs as I tried to speak, but nothing, not even air, would come out. My mouth was dry and my heart’s palpitations began to shake me to my very core.

    He sneered, shaking his head. “Shoulda taken better care of your pokémon.”

    My gaze fell to the floor as tears leaked from my eyes, rapidly hammering the concrete floor in shapeless patterns as I followed, my body collapsing as my mind tried to comprehend the horror that had just been told to me. All this time I had thought...I thought that the hope I had actually meant something...that praying would help...that...that I thought the afterlife might be kind, but now...fear is too strong. She's gone. And the afterlife...the afterlife has taken her!

    A sharp intake of breath marked the initial stage for the emotion that was about to overcome me and expose me as the wreck I am.

    “Styzer!”
    Last edited by Suicune's Fire; 08-06-2014 at 09:47 AM.

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    Argh that's so sad. ;_; The way the guard just blurts out that Styzer died since it means nothing to him and the main character's reaction are really well contrasted. Poor Styzer. (Cool name btw!) :( I also enjoyed trying to guess what Pokemon Styzer was before you revealed it. :D

    And just pointing out a couple things because I think you'd want to know. xD It's so easy to miss stuff in your own stories when you've read them over so many times! >_<

    Others believe that there it’s a paradise waiting just beyond the horizon.
    Should be "is".

    and I was the heavy chuck of metal which slammed into the bars.
    I think you meant "chunk"!

    Good luck for the WAR! :D I liked this theme too, because I am a depressing person who likes sad stories and wants to make people cry. XD


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    Quote Originally Posted by Pokemon Trainer Sarah View Post
    Argh that's so sad. ;_; The way the guard just blurts out that Styzer died since it means nothing to him and the main character's reaction are really well contrasted. Poor Styzer. (Cool name btw!) :( I also enjoyed trying to guess what Pokemon Styzer was before you revealed it. :D

    And just pointing out a couple things because I think you'd want to know. xD It's so easy to miss stuff in your own stories when you've read them over so many times! >_<


    Should be "is".


    I think you meant "chunk"!

    Good luck for the WAR! :D I liked this theme too, because I am a depressing person who likes sad stories and wants to make people cry. XD
    Yay! 8D Yeah. :c Thanks so much! I'm glad you liked it. I'll definitely read yours when I get the chance. c: (Haha, thanks!) Ahaha yeah, I love doing the whole 'slow reveal' thing. xD

    Oh good! Thanks so much for catching those! xD I'm hopeless at that. Hahah. I'll change that straight away. x)

    Thank you! :D Yeah same! LOOOOOL me too! It's fun to know that you can affect people in emotional ways, even if it's depressing. XD


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    This is so depressing and well written I'm not sure whether to be sad or happy. x)

    I’m perfect content not knowing what will happen to me when I kick the bucket.
    Should that be perfectly?

    Anyway awesome story. If I could vote you'd have mine. xD

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    LOL Gemma, thank you! Glad you feel that way. c: THANKS FOR VOTING FOR ME ASJGFHILUHGRGR <3

    And yes, that should indeed be perfectly. Thanks for catching that for me! ^v^ Yayz. Thanks again for reading! *huggles* SEE YOU TOMORROW.


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    Why doesn't PXR have a thumbs up emote?

    This is really good. It was a bit confusing what was happening at first, but it started making sense fast. Hopefully that guard at the end will be the next person in the story to die.

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    Quote Originally Posted by Dragon Master Mike View Post
    Why doesn't PXR have a thumbs up emote?

    This is really good. It was a bit confusing what was happening at first, but it started making sense fast. Hopefully that guard at the end will be the next person in the story to die.
    Haha, you can always find one and them use the image tags, but I understand how that's annoying. xD

    Thank you. :] Yeah, I like to confuse people. XD Good that it came together, haha. HOSTILITYYYYYY! Well glad that you didn't like him. XD Thanks so much for reading. :] You should totally consider entering next week! 8D


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    I am slowly getting to reading these.

    All of the feels! It was pretty well built up, but I kind of wish we got to know Styzer a little better too. Since we didn't see much interaction between them, her dying didn't have as much impact. The main character's reaction however spoke oodles about it. I do have one gripe, and I guess this is just personal preference, and that's just Sneasel are used a lot for thieves. I wouldn't liked to see, say, a Lillipup or something used. Something unusual and not so commonly stereotyped into the thief role, you know?

    But other than that (and some of the occasionally really difficult grammar - I had to reread the parts a few times to make it register, although I could just be tired) it was a beautiful story. I want to punch that guard in the face, btw.

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    Quote Originally Posted by Grassy_Aggron View Post
    I am slowly getting to reading these.

    All of the feels! It was pretty well built up, but I kind of wish we got to know Styzer a little better too. Since we didn't see much interaction between them, her dying didn't have as much impact. The main character's reaction however spoke oodles about it. I do have one gripe, and I guess this is just personal preference, and that's just Sneasel are used a lot for thieves. I wouldn't liked to see, say, a Lillipup or something used. Something unusual and not so commonly stereotyped into the thief role, you know?

    But other than that (and some of the occasionally really difficult grammar - I had to reread the parts a few times to make it register, although I could just be tired) it was a beautiful story. I want to punch that guard in the face, btw.
    Thank you so much for reading this one! ^v^ I'd have read some today but grading sprite art and GCEA entries literally took THE ENTIRE DAY. XD

    Thanks! And yeah, that was party due to time, partly due to wondering if I would be straying too far from the subject. I DID forget to mention that Styzer was meant to have taken the bullet for the protag, so I might fix this up sometime and add a bit more detail to it. :] And actually, my choice of a sneasel had nothing to do with her life of crime. In fact, she wasn't a thief at all. She was an assassin. xD I know you sort of meant to categorise the two. When I envisioned the story, the first thing I thought of was a sneasel paired with this person, and that's the reason I went with it. As well as that, I just really like sneasel in general. xD I do know what you mean though. I dislike stereotypes as well, but yeah, even if the character had had an entirely different life in this story, the pokemon still would have been a sneasel regardless. xD

    Oh really? o: Are there any parts that you can recall which I could review? I must admit that I've been caught out many, many times for awkward phrasing, but that's always been a (possibly annoying) quirk of mine when I write. I don't know if this is valid, but it could also be weird Australian wording although Sarah probably doesn't do it so it's more likely that it's me being weird. xD Nevertheless, thanks for reading and I'll definitely give yours a read soon. :D


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    Ha ha, it's all right. I understand preference wholeheartedly, and I certainly don't think less of you for that. i could've sworn you mentioned thief in the story though, which is where my confusion set in XD

    As for wordy parts, it might have been me being really tired. It was 1 AM+ when I read it, so my mind was more than likely a little frazzled. It doesn't seem too bad when I reread it, there was just one part that felt a little wordy.


    And when it slithers its way along the filthy floor in your conscience, raising its septic, elongated claws so practiced in the art of infection and promised slaughter, all you can do is watch from afar as those deathly spikes plunge into anything and everything you care about.
    This is a single sentence. Don't get me wrong, I love the description in it, but I'm torn since I also feel like it might be a tad bit too long. I don't know >.<

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