@Neo Emolga i have been feeling down ever since 2019-10-24, you know what happened that day. Since then I've been severely depressed ( so much i so that I even wanted to quit Stalkers season 4 ) i needed a friend to cheer me up & to not quit just because of depression. however it's a real struggle since then to stay motivated & until today i have been trying to hide how I have been feeling.