I don't fear much at all in terms of animals. I don't fear dangerous animals, i'm intrigued by them, reptiles don't faze me and I love them. Thats why I have two haha. I'm an overall animal lover so I don't really fear animals. Spiders are meh. Im not fond, but not scared. I even thought about getting a pet tarantula but abandoned the idea in the end. The closest of a fear i have to animals are poisonous animals. I just don't want any near me.
I don't have many strange fears but I have a few ones that either stem from me losing control of myself or the unknown. Like I have a really huge fear of looking out a window when it is dark out. This is only the case if it is practically black outside and as dark as it can get. I don't know why this is but I think it stems from the fear of the unknown and possibly of the dark, even though I am totally fine with the dark, so idk. If there is a window I can see that I am able to see through during the dark, I get extremely nervous and anxious and I have to either position myself in the room where I can not see through the window or close the curtains. Facing away doesn't do anything, it still makes me nervous. I think it kind of stems from the idea that it makes me feel vulnerable because I can't see out because it is dark, but someone will be able to look in, and I want to avoid that horror film moment when you see a face pressed up against the window. I also don't really like going around my house late at night, i think for the same reason and also the idea that someone could be there and i'm not in the safe comfort of my room.
Also, I have a huge fear of sleep paralysis. I have read and heard stories about it and it sounds like the worst thing ever, being stuck in your body without being able to do anything and usually having to live through a few minutes worth of horrible hallucinations. I think the other day when I was going to sleep, I was about to snap into a state of sleep paralysis, because I felt really weird and weightless and could honestly feel as if all control was being taken away from me, so suddenly I opened my eyes a quickly sat up in bed after starting to have a quick panic that it might be sleep paralysis, which it probably wasn't. I think it stems from the idea of me not being in control of myself, which would make me very nervous. This is a reason why I don't like to do anything that may compromise my self control, such as drinking and stuff. Another thing that I think stems from this fear of not being in control of myself is my fear of surgery and operations.
I have a huge fear of going to the hospital to have operations. I have been to the hospital before such as when I had an asthma attack when I was 10 and had to spend 3 days in hospital as the doctors thought my breathing was not stable (Which was when someone came round visiting everyone with teddys and he gave me a pikachu plushie, but it was an old one, where Pikachu still was a bit fat, which I prefer. I didn't like pokemon at that time, so it was pretty ironic that I like it a lot now.) and when I had to have a mini operation on my head to have a mole removed that was large and kept bleeding. However, I never had to be anesthetized for either. The idea about going under anesthetic makes me nervous because the idea of being at the mercy of a doctor and a knife doesn't go well with me. Also, it makes me feel really weird and nasty that theres a possibility I could fall asleep with everything inside me, but could wake up with something missing. This is most likely a fear that most people have to some extent, but for me, it's quite extreme because I regularly try to avoid the doctors or hospital if I can, even though I really shouldn't mainly for this fear.
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