I don't think love is a result of "free-will," but more of a result in brain and brain chemistry. Most notably oxytocin, the hormone of intimacy. It's literally the "love drug," as it plays an important role in sexual reproduction, as well as maternity roles and pair bonding.
But I digress. xD I fell head over heels for a guy a little over a year ago, and it drove me to near insanity. The relationship would've been inappropriate (he's over twice my age...), so it's something I could never pursue. The fact that he was much older really hit me in the face, because I realized I couldn't control my emotions very well and above all, I couldn't control who I fell for. He was just so...I can't describe it really, but I live in a rural area and everyone here is...less than desirable. He was a diamond in the rough, so to speak. It haunted me so horribly I'd have nervous breakdowns a lot and I couldn't even say his name without feeling horrible for a bit. I just have recently gotten over it (for the most part). :(
But I still would really like a significant other. It can make you feel absolutely horrible, but it's a pain you want again and again. But I'm really sensitive and I don't think I can handle a break up in all honesty. The thing with the older guy made me feel the worst I've ever felt, and we didn't even date or get to be "truly" in love, so I cringe at the thought of breaking up with someone who I did get to know and love.
Either way, I'm a hoe and jump from man to man either way.
u laugh but it tru Currently in love with James Van Der Beek (who is also twice my age, I think I have some sort of a complex for older men). He's 2hot4me. <3
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