No, what keeps me in the void is that I cannot remain anchored to existence, no matter how hard I try. I can last up to a week in reality, but the longer I stay, the harder it is and the more I feel like I'm going to die from the exertion, and after a day I'm already fading even if I do pull myself together for the whole week. I mean, I'm already practically a ghost as is, and it's been less than three days. *pushes hand through a wall with no resistance* In three more days, I will stop holding myself together, and you will almost completely forget me until I gain enough power back to do it again, and I'll have to reintroduce myself for the nine hundred thousand and fifty sixth time and only spend a maximum of one week in reality again before the cycle starts over from there. I would very much enjoy being real again, but as I've told you every time you see me, you're wasting your time if you try. I wasted my life, and I don't want you to waste yours on me.
As I said earlier, including myself there are five that I am aware of that are resistant enough to the timelines that they may remember me. Three of the other four others wouldn't be much help, with one being completely or practically soulless, one that hasn't made it here yet in this timeline, and one that is dead but can manifest by possessing the second one, and the first and third neither one would be any help, much rather toying with the timeline than helping anyone. The last person doesn't seem to remember me after I vanish, so while he'd remember the other three after a reset, I don't think he remembers me.
*both eyes begin glowing brightly* Don't you think I would've tried that if it worked! I had a good life! I had a good job! I had a good family! I want it all back! I have since the day I fell in! You know why I'm such a downer? I've given up! I've been stuck in the void since before you became the royal scientist, and I know every reset we've been through since! This effectively makes me the oldest monster alive! And I've spent most of that time trying to get out with help from everyone I knew who is still alive! You, Undyne, Sans, Papyrus, the King and the Queen, even Gerson when I thought that maybe he knew something! Through all of the resets, none of you have been able to do anything! That's why I'm a downer and why I gave up! I could even tell you everything you and anyone else tried to do and almost every reason why those tries failed! The only reason I don't is because it will take up too much of my time to list them all and you'll forget IMMEDIATELY after. I should know, I tried that, too.
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