Quote Originally Posted by Suicune's Fire View Post
Not today, but Thursday. Just a disaster of a day.

Essentially I started this new job at the start of August as a contracted helping hand, and about a month in, management was like: "the VIC team handles four states; wanna handle three of them by yourself?" and I just was sort of like "ajiofniug I guess?" Complete deep-end and learned how to do everything on the fly. I work way over my contracted hours because I don't want excess work to fall onto my team, and also don't want to fall behind. I liaise with a few third-party companies we work through and have to be in constant contact while also being in contact with customers and trying to organise deliveries, etc. Without going into too much detail, it's just...a lot. I've constantly had anxiety stomach and it's breaking me down bit by bit... lol. I've had help here and there, but we just do not have the staff, and headcount approval is so damn tough to get. As a result my whole team is under so much stress, and nobody has the capacity to be constantly helping me with coordinating three freaking states because the volume is less than VIC.

On Thursday basically everything went wrong, I felt like it was my fault because I was juggling three-billion things, and it just all became too much. I left the house at 7am and got home after 9pm, and like huddled in a corner and cried for half an hour, just entirely overwhelmed and stressed. xD Then like attempted to eat and got like two spoonfuls in, then went to bed. I came into work Friday and cried a bit, but then we had a team huddle and worked things out, and now my immediate problem is solved (at a compromise) and this coming week is gonna put everything to the test. Constantly angry customers, leaning on people for support, pushing our third-party companies while being like "I'm really sorry" and running out of energy very quickly. My stomach has been in knots and I don't know when this will stop. Volume-wise, it should cool down in about a week before it'll ramp back up towards the end of November, but I know that's wishful thinking. We just need more people and it feels like my small team and I are holding the fort until backup arrives.

Bleeehhhh!
Seriously Xanthe. You're way too nice to be out through so much trouble like that. Work shouldn't be pushing you to the point you feel the need to cry even a little. Some jobs are crazy task heavy and rely on certain people handling so many tasks at once. It's silly to think someone can mentally do it all.

Please remember to take time to yourself and enjoy down time while you can. Set some time to chill with good friends and good company. Heck you know right where to find it if you need a quick pick me up too. We're always here for you and the rest of the community. I'm happy to call you all friends and I'd always be here for any of you if you need it. As I'm sure the rest of us are.

Certain things may seem good about the job, but if things get out of control and out of hand. Don't hesitate to let them know. I learned that the hard way....

Sometimes people are just awful and out to cause trouble. It can be hard, but try to remember to smile it through. Once you make it through it's a HUGE stress reliever no doubts about it. Even better is knowing you succeeded and got stronger because of it. I mean it's great to hear you got a new job and enjoy it, but if it comes at the cost of your mental health it's not worth it I'd say. Always be on the lookout for something better. That's something I'll be focusing on after these next 4 days.

Anyway yes, please Xanthe. Take care of yourself okay? Don't wanna see your awesome self get way in over your head and lose yourself. We're always here for you!