I'm glad everyone else has great parents. I… well they're aren't the best.

My mother is like the ultimate helicopter parent. She's extremely limiting and oppressive, especially when I was living under her own roof. I had to wear what she wanted me to wear, I had to wear makeup perfectly, etc. She's never liked that I'm so invested in Pokémon and other anime type things. She thinks they're a waste of time. I wanted to be a historian, but she forced me to be a political scientist. If I got a B or lower on an assignment, for years until I was 16, she would beat me. She doesn't do is as much now, but I still can remember times I thought she was going to break my wrist from when she grabbed me so hard.

Now, don't get me wrong, she still loves me, I know. She just doesn't know how to express it because her mother never really expressed love to her. In addition, my dad's job takes him away quite a bit, so she had to play both the dad and the mom for me. But I think it's slightly terrifying that if I get a B on a homework that I tend to start mentally flipping out and one time nearly passed out from hyperventilating so much. She says that the reason she's so hard on me is that unlike her, I don't seem to have the determination or drive that she has. And she's right, but that's because my mom is the type of person that would crack the earth in half if you asked her to. I'm a much more relaxed person and I still haven't really figured out what I want to do in life.

She's also extremely critical. I try not to come home much anymore because she always yells at me about my clothes, my makeup, my hair, my nails, my shoes, my weight, etc. She's made me extremely self conscious of myself, which is why I tend to be very sensitive of my work and every detail about myself, such as my spelling. It's why I fear critique, because generally I'm usually being hit when I receive critique. She even didn't like how much time I was spending playing Sun and Moon over winter break rather than doing something productive. So now apparently I'm not going to get anymore Pokémon games ever because I'm so lazy that I don't know when to stop playing them.

My dad is usually the nice guy, but my mom will often twist his arm to make him side with her. He's never really been there for me because his job always takes him elsewhere. And while we've traveled a lot together, I feel like the only bonding we've had is that we usually have beach weeks together and go to see a ton of movies. I love my dad, he gives me lots of presents, but he's just never there to protect me when I need him to be.