I definitely don't want this to get into the sexual territory, but I think it's an interesting subject. I think maybe more people than we think have to go through this. Philia doesn't always relate to sex! It related to attraction as well, INCLUDING romantic attraction! :o So get your head out of the clouds. >:O
Hell, I even become attracted to / have crushes on pairings and OTPs! I know it sounds weird, but. Yeah. I think it's more warm fuzzies than anything else. Eye-dee-kay.
This is a really personal part of me, but I don't mind sharing this with you guys since I've come to terms with it for a while now.
Ever since I was little, I've always been able to form romantic feelings towards fictional characters. Video games, anime, cartoons, whatever! I've gone through so many fictional character crushes.
For those of you that might be a little unclear about what I mean, I think this statement will help clear it up: I get infatuated and form these made-up emotional bonds and the like towards fictional characters just like I would with anyone in the waking world. To me, there's no difference. A character can be just as life-like as any normal person, especially in personality. And where the canon lacks, there's always headcanon.
I'm not referring to the, "Oh that character is attractive" kind of thing. Sure, we've ALL found a fictional character attractive to some degree.
20-something years later, it's just something that I haven't been able to get over. But you know what? I'm okay with that, because it's a part of me. I have crushes on fictional characters now, and my outlet is via my dreams, via reading fanfics and reader inserts, and looking for artwork related to the character or pairing. Stuff like that. Do you guys remember when I was obsessed with Hiro from BH6? That was a crush. A pretty big one. Not just me being a "omg squee fangirl."
Don't get me wrong, though! Obviously I still form attractions towards real people. I mean, I'm married for a reason! :o And yes, I still form crushes even being married. Just because I'm devoted doesn't mean I can't feel normal, completely human feelings! I just don't let them get in the way. And they don't.
I dunno, maybe this is wayyyy more normal than I think. Is there anyone else that can relate in some way? If you've got a story to share, let's hear it! :o














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