I'm sorry to hear that @Noblejanobii, I know how it feels to lose someone who's made an impact on the person you are. It can be rough, and I hope you have a great support system to lean on.

@ant2011, I have to agree with suicune's fire, you don't deserve to be in a relationship of that type, emotional blackmail is not something you want to put up with for too long, it can get to the point where it affects your other relationships as well.

@Mujaffa, have you ever tried temp agencies or staffing agencies? I've done stuff from data entry to car detailing when I was having a rough time finding a job the pay is usually pretty decent. It's a horrible stigma that comes with social services, there are a lot of people here who are on government aid, and the only ones who get noticed are the ones who take advantage of the system, while the ones who are using it to try and get out of that situation get ignored with very little help.